If anyone doesn't know what a cake face is, it's someone who wears too much makeup. I've just turned fourteen (I'm in eighth grade) and I have drastically changed my style. My peers used to know me as "wrist cutter" and "Emo girl" because I was very good at abstract, surreal and dark waved poetry (English, Literacy), art and composing sad music. It's really shallow of them, but you get used to it. I started dressing Gothic Lolita. It's a Japanese fashion style/subculture wear girls dress elegantly; like dolls from the eighteenth and nineteenth century. It has nothing to do with Lolita from that stupid novel or pedophilia. Just Google it and you'll get what I mean.
I've been wearing the fashion for a bit over a year now. I came over to my friends house because she wanted me to try on dresses (she calls me her little doll). However, she mentioned that I am so-called "incredibly gorgeous", but I'm a bit cake faced. I must admit, I wear a lot of makeup. I wear IQQU Acne Serum and Sunscreen, stick foundation, Concealer, finishing powder, eye shadow (black, purple, brown and grey), lots of eyeliner, red lipstick, red lip gloss, and black, blue or grey Korean circle lenses. I always make sure I have a shower every day, curl my hair, coordinate and pick out my clothes and accessories, have all my school supplies ready and homework done (studying for tests too), and have a nice French Manicure (with well groomed nails). I practice how I react to people's rude remarks and how I'll respond to questions in the mirror for about an hour. God, I guess I'm just paranoid of everyone bullying me again. High school is coming soon and I'm nervous of what people will think of me. I've been living a fake personality since seventh grade (I'm still a child, but I'm probably smarter than a lot of you). I act mature, kind, gentle, sweet, caring and exceptionally polite in front of people, but in reality, I'm really humorous, goofy, jumpy, but kind of vulgar, cruel and uncaring. It's sad how I changed myself due to my elegant lifestyle. Should I go back to the way I was, or stay elegant?
Ah, I think lightening up on the makeup would be good. ^^"
BTW, I don't look like a fourteen year old with no tits. I developed all the "stuff" when I was eleven or so. I'm five foot seven. People who meet me think I'm seventeen...
Apology accepted. :3 And I'm actually not very approachable. I'm too quiet. Plus, people still think I'm Emo. The bragging part is accidental; I really don't have much self-esteem. I'm just proud to be smarter and take care of myself than a lot of people my age, that's all.
It's fine. You're fourteen, not twelve, you're growing up! It's better to have 'a lot' of makeup NOW, then when you're twenty-five and you're scrutinised even more so. However, I must agree, turn down the makeup a bit. It's school, and you're there to concentrate.
Your style is Gothic Lolita, which takes a lot of guts! Even if people accuse you of being a fake and wanting to stand out, they need to understand how hard it is to pull it off with such criticism, which is why there aren't many people who dress Lolita outside of Japan. My two friends dress Gothic Lolita, and have been doing so since last year, this year we are turning fifteen.
I go to quite a crappy school, in fact we were on the news for a facebook group issue. There's a lot of bullying here - but not as much fights, thankfully! XD But yeah, since we wear uniforms, we can only dress how we want around once a term. Each time, my two friends would wear their Lolita dresses, and did not get bullied.
OH, and your personality kind of reminds me of my Lolita-style friend, except more cheerful. She's quite a gentle, mature, polite and caring person on the outside, but if you become friends with her, you notice that she has a bit of a murderous and sinister mindset. lol xD